Archive for September 29th, 2009


A Day off in the Real World.

In Post on September 29, 2009 by BillieHarper Tagged: , , , , , ,

One day off this week, and I’ve spent most of it lying around the house watching TV. It’s not unusual. When I’m not inspired to do anything, I tend to waste away the day doing, well, nothing. And living here, in a place that is probably the most uninspiring thing in my life…well, I’m not often inclined to do much. Maybe that’s why I spend so much of my time reading, studying, and crocheting anymore. I’ve been doing a lot of that, crocheting. I’m hoping that I can have my afghan done at least by Christmas, if not earlier. I really should take some photos of it to post, as I’m rather impressed with myself and my dedication to actually finishing it.

Speaking of creating things, a friend of mine has offered to teach me how to knit. I’m hoping we can get together soon so I can maybe try my hand at knitting some cute accessories for winter – scarves, hats, socks…maybe a sweater? She and I are talking about having knitting/crocheting parties (which makes me laugh and think that, really, we’re just a couple of old women), and I think it would be tons of fun!

I’ve also been writing a lot of letters and cards lately. I miss writing letters, and think that, in reality, something is lost with the impersonal nature of e-mail and Facebook-ing. So, I’ve written a couple of letters to very dear friends, sent a few cards just to say I’m thinking about them, and, in general, have just been having a good time with it. I’m hoping that maybe I can get into handmaking cards like Mom has done in the past, but first I think she and I need to clear off some space in the house to have room for it!

And, as I reach the pinnacle of my creative outlets of late, let’s talk about the house. I’m supposed to wait to finish my bedroom until after we get the wall fixed so the brick doesn’t continue caving in, but I’m really thinking that I should just start painting now. I really want to create a space that’s all my own as opposed to the space that was created for me. Of course, I still don’t spend much of my time there, as the computer and TV and everything are still upstairs. But, if I can find a new laptop, get wireless internet, and have the cable wired through the basement? There’s no stopping me! And I’ve got plenty of ideas for the design of my room! I’m actually very excited about the whole thing, as it panders to my former career dreams (when I was about 15) of being an interior designer. Then I realized that you have to be able to draw plans for design and that I therefore couldn’t do it. I can’t draw a straight line correctly!


What I always wanted to try.

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I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately because, well, let’s just say that, just like most people in this world, I don’t plan on staying at my current job for too long. And I certainly don’t plan on working this job as a career! So, I’ve been thinking and…day dreaming, if you will, about some of the things that I have wanted for a career in my short lifetime. I seem to change my mind more often than I can keep track of, and I have so many interests that it’s really hard to nail any one thing down and keep it for very long. Perhaps that’s why I’ve chosen an area to go into that will allow me to do several other things within my line of work. But, there are a few things on this list that I’d still really like to do!

-Glass blowing: I know, it sounds kind of silly and weird and, maybe a little dangerous, but I’ve always been fascinated by blown glass. Actually, when I was younger, Mom and I were in Oregon visiting my aunt and we went to a glass blower’s studio. I remember wondering what it would take to do that sort of thing. It’s so creative and unpredictable and…yes, a bit dangerous. Truth is, I’m a real wimp when it comes to heat, but that doesn’t stop me from wanting to give this a try.

-Hiking Guide: Okay, so I’m a bit biased when it comes to the mountains and wanting to be there all the time. I’d probably do a lot of complaining if I had to spend all my time taking other people where they wanted to go, but I sometimes think that the view would make up for it. Of course, I’d want to take my dogs along 😀

-Park Ranger: When I was younger, it sounded like fun. These days, I’m a bit more cynical, and a lot more jaded. I know that being a government employee isn’t high on many peoples’ lists, and, frankly, I think there would be a lot of other things I could do in the mountains.

-Painter: It’s strange, but I’m not talking about, like, painting art, but rather, painting houses for a living. I think it would be a lot of fun, especially considering my love of color but lack of real artistic ability.

-College Professor: This is the closest to the profession I’ve actually chosen. I think the idea of being a professor is more appealing than the reality of it. Personally, I’m not a huge fan of young adults (probably from ages 14-25, and I’m only 23), and I’m nowhere near cool enough to be anything as effective as my own college professors.

I guess I think that we all leave some things behind when we actually make a life for ourselves. Most of us, at least. Some people are lucky enough to do what they love, love what they do, and be content doing the same thing their whole lives. I think sometimes that I envy people who know from a very young age what they want to do, how they want to forge a place for themselves in this world. I used to think I was one of those people. And then I grew up and realized that there are so many things I want to do…and how am I supposed to choose just one?